isheeza vs. successful authors

Hello, dear reader. First of all thank you for being so patient with me while I get myself together and through this hectic period in my life.

It's been a complicated few week filled with deadlines, postponed deadlines, piles of laundry, missed meals and sleepless nights. The only thing that keeps me going is you, dear reader, and the fact that it will all be worth it!

Look at us, heart to heart and knee deep in feels <3 p="">
So, how many of you squealed with delight when you saw the picture above and how many of you googled the people sitting behind me?

Let's split you guys 50/50 for argument's sake and continue with the post.

Tonight, dear reader, was solidification of what I want my future to entail. My journey to becoming an international best seller is not an easy one. I had to give up a few certain things like teacher's college and a well-paying job to stick with this risky business. There have been times when I have gotten impatient because of the lack of response from my audience or from the lack of results that I have produced, but tonight was a glimpse into my future. A glimpse that made me weak in the knees.

As I stood in line and waited for these authors to show up, I could hear the people behind me talking about their love for their favourite books, reciting dialogues they had memorized  and profess their love for these wonderful writers who had given them these stories. Next, my attention was drawn towards the set up and black, velvet rope which isolated the fans from the rest of the regular Indigo crowd.

These fans felt so privileged to be here just so that they could meet their idols and their heroes. Dear reader, I must be honest here and tell you that I wasn't one of the fans. I mean I've read all of the books that each of these authors have written and some of them are indeed brilliant, but that wasn't the reason I went.

I was there for selfish reasons. I went there for motivation, for inspiration and to see whether or not I was on the right track.

I stood there in line with the rest of the fans just as eager to meet this panel of successfully, brilliant authors. Finally, after hours of waiting, the authors (I cannot stop using that word, I'm loving it too much) were announced into the room and everyone started clapping and cheering.

I felt my heart beat a little faster. Do you know what I was thinking, dear reader? Can you guess?

I was picturing myself on that stage, as proud and as accomplished as the authors currently occupying it and I couldn't breathe. My dream was alive and it was happening right in front of me. All I had to do was walk a few feet, climb onto the stage and I would be there.

And that's how close I feel to becoming an international best selling author, dear reader. I can touch and taste the wonder of my dream and it is one of the best feelings I have ever experienced.

If all of that wasn't enough I got to ask these wonderful ladies a few questions about being an author. Their answers resonated with me and in that moment I felt like I was one of them, dear reader, me, isheeza! Can you imagine my delight?

It was by far one of the most exciting nights of my life. Tonight showed me the future and solidified me into an international best selling author. I will work hard, dear reader, and I will not give up. No matter how long it takes, one day someone else will be writing their blog about me and I hope that I can give them the same hope and inspiration that these lovely ladies have given me tonight.

Thank you.

Until next time, smiles up and doubts down.

isheeza